First step: get clean

Hey yall, my name is Robin and this will be my blog.

So today I want to start changing my life, which is pretty sad at the moment. Im living on gov wellfare after becoming too sick to work, this started 8 years ago.

2014 I did start an education as software developer. It was a two year program and shortly before successfully ending it, I became sick again and had to redo the last year. So I finished it in three years instead of two.

After finishing my education in 2016 I didnt find a job and got sick again and again. So the jobcenter put me off and Im on wellfare for 1.3yrs now.

My health is ok at the moment but my fittness-level is beyond bad. I cant even describe it. Im only 33yrs old but things are bad to say the least.

This is why I start this blog. First step for me clearly is to get rid of cigarettes, the ocassional beer and start doing sports again.

So it’s monday now, new week etc. good day to quit smoking cold turkey imo and see what it brings.

In 2015, I already stopped smoking for three months and it worked wonders, so I hope this time it’ll be the same.

My future goals are:

• get a job as software developer
• learn spanish(already started)
• learn to play the piano
• work out twice a day(morning and evening, short 10-20min workouts)
• get in touch with friends and family again
• get the girl of my dreams(far fetched, since I haven’t talked to her since 2006)
• be happy again overall

Family and friends wise I’m quite off the rail at the moment and mostly sitting at home alone. Haven’t talked to my younger sister really since 2007 and my older one since sometime last year. Since two weeks I stopped talking to my mother as I don’t really like her personality that much and put off the disconnection to her for far too long. Contact with friends I don’t value that much somehow, might be because I don’t really have any hobbies right now to share with em, that used to be way different but I’ll tell you more about myself in the future.

On another note, I’m vegan or at least try to be. It’s a tough battle that I fight everyday. There are days, where I just can’t do it and eat a magherita pizza or even a doner kebap sometimes. I’m really dissappointed with myself on those days, as I know how animals suffer in the industry and that it’s wrong to eat them. I mean imagine yourself in their shoes…just horrific to think about it.

Goals for today:

• 0 more cigarettes(already smoked a couple this morning)
• 1 more lesson in spanish at babbel
• 10 push-ups

That’s it for today. Hope to post here daily with my progress etc, later

Robin